Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Near To Close

Bringing a new horizon
Bridging a lost distance
I feel a divine light enliven
Taking a new stance

It wakes me up
From dreams unknown
Far away from the foray
Of deep regret, forlorn

Lifting me up, Moments of glory
A decade of life shimmers
Seconds of guilt, minutes of fury
I walk away from the shades

Passing through the time
When I was in the dark
Splendid peace around me
And needs of life so stark

I reach the glow of the end
I wonder what’s the dearth
I fall with all that I spent
Meeting with the final truth


 
 
Gracias,
ßąK૯ર

Monday, September 9, 2013

A Touch of Heaven

A dedication to the most outstanding personality in this universe. My Mom!


You came a long way
From paradise above
As your eyes reflect
Angelic crystals of care

You shine in the middle
Of a crowd of millions
You brighten up the world
For more than myself

Twinkle in your smile
And a heart full of love
Your small embrace
Takes me to the sky

You long for nothing
Or pray for something
Maybe you are God itself
For no one else is close

Gratitude won’t be enough
For the solitude I never felt
Because I knew you were there
With me in your arms

Is this a touch of heaven
Or a boon from above
To have been born to you
To be vested with you

I know nothing more
Than what you’ve shown
But I know I’m strong
With you beside me

Every time I rest my head
Your lap beckons me
For no pillow would matter
When it comes to your care

From little cuddles to care
From depths to the rim
I know it’s love that completes you
I know it’s you who complete me

Gracias,

ßąK૯ર

Friday, August 30, 2013

Once upon a time in Mumbai...:-)

Life takes you through many turns. Some are deliberately opted for, yet some others fall into place somehow. Here's a big experience, much more shortened.

It was a brave decision to leave for Mumbai taken by me. Part of a grid that was created in my mind someday during my experiments with life. Change is always desired, and Mumbai somehow seemed alluring to do my PG. Moreover, I got through a pretty decent college.

After coming to Mumbai, life has been a blur. A very flashy blur for that matter. I could relate with people here almost instantly and it seemed my decision to change locations was one of the best ever taken by me. I was amazed at the pace with which I made friends. I wondered where did my inhibitions take off to. A spark of divine intervention; I must define it like that. Every moment turns into an experience here; giving such a sense of self reliance, happiness and satisfaction.

Mumbai may not be compared with Paris or NYC but the city's charm in itself is so attractive that even without speaking a word of Marathi, I feel at home here. The cuisine, the lifestyle of the people, the struggle with which many spend days, the luxury with which beamers pass by me- all these are incredibly astounding.

The pace of life in this city is so vigorous that I realize it's been a month since my course started. I have been in different places geographically and lived in rather diverse environments. The city of bollywood keeps throwing a bone at me for choosing it as my current home.

Yesterday (29/08/13) was another great day. First off all we had a holiday which makes any day! Secondly I woke up at 12 noon and thirdly, it was Dahi Handi which is an annual occurrence in the city. Teams of teens and kids and adults turn up to break the pot containing curd relating to Lord Krishna. Political parties sponsor lakhs of rupees, trophies etc. A political gambit I could phrase, Dahi Handi is one of the craziest, colourful and incredible sights. Human towers are made by balancing upon one another following well maintained strategy and spirit. Some stumble, some rise. Either way, for us spectators, it was mesmerizing indeed. Music, inherent in any Indian festival, takes center of attraction.

To account for experiences in Mumbai, I will have to recount every second as each and every moment is incredible here. Well, singing aloud facing the sea in Marine Drive would be a primary one which I would elaborate soon. Life seems amazing. God's grace; isn't it?

Gracias,

ßąK૯ર

Friday, August 16, 2013

Veiled Dreams


Been long since I had been in this mood....:-( ...:-)



Tonight I’m wailing
Falling unto a deep abyss
My wish is only your presence
My life is a prayer for you

I’ll turn every tear for you
My voice shall echo
From the shadows deep within
After my life, forever for you

Take my arm in your dreams
For I know what’s there beyond
I’ll guide you there
Leading our paths together

Coz tonight I weep
But not anymore
Life’s choices hit me hard
But pain is bound to me

I didn’t look for this
But this black fortune
Came my way to haunt
I turn behind for a last look

I listen those bells clanging
I feel my breath stopping
My strings get attached
My song pauses for now

Veiled dreams mute me
Final take on my life
What I'm left with
Will never be mine anymore

And tonight I smile
Rising from my ashes
My wish is still your presence
My life still a prayer…for you.


ßąரK૯ર


Friday, June 21, 2013

A Sandwich Story!


Hola mates!  Well, the title to this experience may sound weird but as you advance through the article, you may agree with me. It’s my experience, unabridged and candid, so I hope you read this with an open mind. I wish to to detail this using seven facts that I realized during this whole experience.

First of all, a fact- I love to eat. Especially when I’m bored, alone, happy and indeed when hungry.  So here I was yesterday, browsing through the “infotainment” channels on TV. I paused shuffling the channels when I saw TLC (Travel & Living Channel by Discovery) and their selection of ten best sandwiches in the world. As you might have deduced, I watched the whole thing and felt hungry. Not just hungry, but I craved for a real good Western sandwich that could satisfy the lust of my taste buds. But I live in Cochin, a place where sandwiches are not the local favorite. Although I knew near Fort Kochi & other Beach sides, tourist attraction was high and thus businesses ran catering to the international dining needs. Figuring that out, I ran a check through tripadvisor website and found top 100 culinary destinations in the district and #7 on the list was a café on the shores of Cherai beach, less than 10 kms away from my home. The reviews were great, and their menu boasted a particular “World’s Best Sandwich”.

Second fact- I had just learnt how to ride a motorcycle properly and had bought one recently. But I never took it out to farther distances from my home; actually, my grandparents take too much care of me and thus restrict me from the same fearing my safety. But the sandwich was a dream that could come true and moreover, my bike could run some extra miles. I so wanted to take it out but the idea of taking the machine out till Cherai sounded nightmare-ish to my grandparents. So yesterday wilted away and thus came today. The sandwich was still a dream. So after my lunch I lay on my bed thinking what to do. I was messaging with one of my close friends, when I told her about my plan. She, being the craziest and encouraging person that I know, urged me to go. So at evening four, I gave a short notice to all at home and dressed up and revved up the bike. They agreed, although they were worried of my safety.

Third fact- Cherai beach was a frequent destination for my parents and myself from the time when I was a little kid. So I had a particular affection to that place somewhere inside. Picturing that nostalgically, I rode the bike through a slight drizzle that just spiced up the ride. I rode on, and through heavy traffic, managed and swerved the bike enough to save my life several times and reached Cherai. Sure enough, it was flooded with people and the sound of the waves was as mesmerizing as ever. By then, a smile had bloomed on my face, automatically. I didn’t know what had triggered it, but it did feel good as I drove on, with the sea and the wind sprinkling salt water on my spectacles.

Fourth fact- You crave for something too much, it disappears. From Google maps, I had a general idea of where this restaurant was and I checked both sides of the road for the name “Chillout Café”. I had read that it was run by a French couple, which motivated me further to visit the place for its authenticity. I rode past a handful of restaurants, homestays and resorts but hadn’t yet found my target. But after a kilometer, towards the left of me, I found an orange board heralding the name of the French café! As I slowed down and examined, disappointment flooded me. The café had been closed and it looked fairly permanent. You wouldn’t believe the way I felt. I felt like I had cheated my tongue!

Fifth fact- If a door closes, then a thousand more doors open.  What next? Was the question. I looked around and I found another orange coloured board saying “Le 3 Elephants- Eco Resorts and French-Indo restaurant”. I felt happy to have found an alternative. So I keyed the ignition and geared up. After some distance, the road diverted and I followed the signboards. With the help of some locals, I was able to locate the resort. Honestly, one would never expect a resort in the midst of such a rural place. Anyway, I reached the place and, asked from outside whether their restaurant was open. The employees asked me to go in and I did.

Sixth fact- Expect the unexpected. I parked my bike and stepped into a lobby that was traditionally furnished. In the vicinity I could see several thatched villas overlooking a closed riverside. I was accompanied to the restaurant under a thatched roof and was seated. Opposite to my table, an extremely pretty White lady (French, I had guessed) was behind a laptop typing away. She smiled at me in a very candid manner and I returned the gesture. The waiter took my order for some fresh Orange juice and an egg and bacon sandwich. The moment I ordered, I felt fulfilled. Stupidity maybe, but I truly did. I rose from my seat and walked through a stone paved footpath that led to the edge of the resort near the river. A solitary guy was fishing at one end. The river looked so very tranquil that such a sense of peace engulfed me. I must say that the atmosphere was at its best with a slight rain, silent atmosphere, birds flying, greenery and the sound of the waves behind me half a km away. I returned to my seat and freshly squeezed orange juice was in front of me, which did taste pretty good. The sandwich arrived a bit late. Meanwhile, the French beauty and myself kept glancing and smiling at each other. The waiter had told me that she was one of the owners of the resort (I felt a heart-sink there you know!) so the secret behind her smile was revealed to me.

Seventh fact- Sometimes, more than your goal, the journey to reach it enthralls you. The sandwich had arrived. It was coupled with a salad, French wedges and ketchup. It was a three layered sandwich with egg and bacon. Surely, it tasted good, although I must say I have had better. But this was indeed a storm in the desert for me! So here I was, savouring a much craved for meal, feeling so happy, content, independent and satisfied. I finished the sandwich and the sides, and acquainted with the French lady. Madrie was her name and she thanked me for paying the visit. I appreciated her effort in starting a business here and took leave (I would otherwise too, right?!). I rode further through the beach road and this time my smile was even broader for the fact that a sandwich and the quest for it had filled my desire. The sun had set, the rain kept pouring, and I kept riding on. The waves sounded so cheerful then.

Gracias!
  
ßąK૯ર

Sunday, June 9, 2013

End of grad life, beginning of PG life. But what’s in between?


This article has more than a generic impact. The sheer reason being that I contribute into this on a more personal note, quoting from my very own experiences. Requesting the bail in advance because the article is just an array of thoughts happening when I’m bored. Forgive me early on and read on!

It’s been almost 2 weeks since my college life got over and I graduated. I had priorities such as attending a b-school interview in Bangalore (travel with my grandparents!) and buying a bike of my own. After the accomplishment of these, for the past 7 days, I’ve been seriously concentrating on doing nothing! Well, maybe except for learning how to ride a bike. Fuelled with boredom, I did learn riding it pretty well.

Boredom as such cannot be blamed for boring me. The reason being, I myself indulge in thoughts of myself and maybe in acting them out whenever I’m alone in my room; which is, 24*7. I don’t complain of boredom because I’ve watched 5 movies in theatres, finished 2 novels (Where The Shadows Lie by Michael Ridpath is a recommended read), gained not less than 3 kgs (I’m already chubby btw) and have chatted with almost all of my friends, frankly and mainly, girls. I don’t know whether it’s my attribute alone to text friends of the opposite gender while I’m all free and bored. But I’m sure; guys, many of you know what I mean!

There has been a void in my life. But let’s not get into that because as Lao Tzu said, if you’re depressed, you are living in the past. Maybe it’s my way of reacting to the vacuum or filling up that void. But what sparks my thought is that, despite all the resources, including the behemoth of Internet at my disposal, what am I complaining about? Is it the absence of the duty of going to college or looking forward to classes the following month? Or is it something else that I don’t know how to phrase?

My graduation life ended with sorrows of leaving my friends, vacating the hostel etc. and with the satisfaction of graduating with a good percentage. A feeling of emptiness may not be the protagonist in this article, but I feel writing about it softens it’s effect on me. I await the results of the interview to an Ivy League college that interests me widely, the reason being, I will have to repeat an year for my Post Grad in case I didn’t make it.

Nutshelling, I could analyze these 2 weeks and say, loneliness, anxiety, triumph and nostalgia can be found as reasons for my petty cranked thoughts. But one thing pars all; I could reach well within myself and nearly feel what I’m all about when I’m alone. I bet you can too. Philosophically.

Gracias,

ßąK૯ર

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Spears of Vulgarity

Seek loneliness of today
In the midst of pain unbound
Clear loss of life imbibed
From a generation of foray

Emptiness of solutions
Stillness of the clouds
Wrenches open the ways
Wretched kith and kin

Call in for the night's howl
Preying on the darkest prowl
Morbid fear being the fire
Can't dedicate faith unto none

For no clear passion
Forlorn us dear vision
Fearsome spears of vulgarity
Seers into heart's insanity

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Uncounted Words

I have a poem here. A poem that I had written a while ago. It's simply, my heart at that time put into words. It has no fixed rhyme scheme or poetic devices in it. It even maybe mushy, I don't think I should care....:-) If you can, kindly go through and comment!

 P.S - You will deduce the phase of my life when I wrote this!



So many things untold,
So many smiles to glow
So many tears to hold,
And so many thoughts of you

My heart is mine now,
You have given it back,
Call it fate or fault,
Now we part ways

Still my mind races,
To listen to you,
Maybe to talk a little,
To share a few words

Now with you gone,
What will I become?
A living piece of flesh
Or a dying piece of heart?

You were my angel,
And my only angel,
Every sweet memory
Runs into my head now

In the final moment,
I wished I could tell you
A million truths
That holds me void

But now the moment is gone,
And the life chase is on,
I search for my wounds,
Deep inside to heal